Mental Health Awareness Month- Postpartum Anxiety
Postpartum Anxiety (Postpartum Panic Disorder)- when the sufferer feels nervous and has recurring panic attacks.
OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder)- having a tendency towards orderliness, perfectionism, and great attention to detail.
First Time Mom Anxiety- How I’m Feeling
The definition defined above is when the sufferer feels nervous and has recurring panic attacks. I whole heartedly agree with this. I feel nervous ALL the time. I feel like no matter what I have done in the last 4 weeks, I have been overly nervous. I just start shaking and crying. It gets really bad at nighttime right before bed. I think it’s because during the day I don’t have time to think about much between trying to catch up on housework and sleep, and take care of my son, and on top of trying to do things that make me sane, like take my hot baths, my skin care routine, running my blog, and exercising. It’s actually a lot. So when I go to lay down at night, I just feel this overwhelming wave of emotions come over me, and I can’t help myself. It doesn’t happen every night but on some nights, it does. It makes me feel terrible.
I also feel like my OCD has ramped up since being home. Maybe because I don’t have work or anything else to keep me busy, and being in quarantine definitely DOES NOT help. I feel like if one little thing is like out of place, it makes me want to spazz out. It’s not a good feeling at all. I feel like I have been cooped up for way to long. If you have this OCD problem, then you know how I feel! It’s rough!
The more that I sit and think about it, I don’t necessarily think there is lack of awareness, I think there is more people in denial. I mean there is always something going on in someone’s head, we can’t quite rate that on a scale because it’s always going to be different than what we ourselves are going through. So there is different kinds of awarenesses we can bring to certain/different situations. I believe no matter what though, you should be kind. No matter the situation/problem. I believe that everyone should be courteous of how others feel and always take into consideration, that even though this person doesn’t seem like there is anything wrong, that maybe there is. So just be kind. That always makes someone feel better, which in return brings awareness to the fact that you weren’t mean and took in their feelings without discerning what they feel and rating it.
Things That Calm Me
A few things tend to calm me down when I’m having a tiny anxiety attack.
- Telling my husband about it. No, like seriously. Talk about it. If you say it’s happening, then it’s really happening. The only way to feel better is to talk it out. This way you can get your thoughts in order.
- Take a hot bath. This always helps me tremendously. The hot water to me is so relaxing! Plus I ALWAYS feel so much better and clean after!
- Read a book. When I open someone else’s story and problems, mine disappear for a short amount of time!
- Snuggling my babe! This is a new one, but now that my little boy is here, one look from him and it makes me feel so much better. Those dishes and laundry can wait. They make you crazy anyway.
The older I get, the more I understand this whole mental health thing. When I was younger I guess I was constantly thinking about what I was doing right then and there and not about tomorrow or next week, really I didn’t think. I didn’t think before I did anything. Therefore most of the time leaving my life a mess. Now I think WAY to much, and still feel like I don’t think enough or take things into consideration much, even though I do, way more than I should! This causes me anxiety. I’m more aware now of when I’m doing it, and I even tell myself when I’m doing it.
My best advice for keeping the anxiety at bay, is to honestly take a deep breath and have common sense. Anytime I feel anxious, I think of things I do know. Or things I already feel in control of. This helps me logically think of a solution to my anxiety, and then I can control what’s in front of me or how I’m feeling at that moment.
I guess the point of this blog is to talk about how I’m feeling, and what I do to kind of control it. That’s the whole point of Mental Health Awareness right? You talk about it and that brings awareness. No one will ever know how you are really feeling unless you tell them. This in point, you are making them aware that you don’t feel good. It’s their reaction to hopefully be kind, and in return making us feel better.